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For what had happen in my life. I dont think i want to get married one fine day. I dont want to end up my relationship just like mom and dad do. Always fight and argue each other. I can see. They didnt respect each other. I dont want to have such that relationship. I know myself well. I am egomaniac. Can my future husband bear with my ego, my bad mood? I am afraid that we will fight because of our ego. I dont want such that thing. It is hard to find someone who are truly a good man. Kalau ada pun biasanya orang punya. 😂

Well. Im not as good as saidatina fatimah. So, i dont deserve a guy just like saidina ali.

Because of that, why not i just focus on study and career. If i can find a man who can bear with my bad behaviour, who can keep my secret. Who can respect and take care of me as his wife. Then we will think again.

Yet before, i was afraid. Im not that beautiful. What if nobody loves me. Nanti aku akan kahwin tak? If not, what will my relatives say abou me? Anak dara tua?
But now. I just want to think about myself. What is the purpose of marriage? To make sure that your relatives will not calling you as 'anak dara tua'?

Marriage for me is a forever relationship. If you are not sure you can stay and give commitments in a relationship and bear with your partner behaviours. I think its better if you stay single. Yes. If you get married and you find you and your partner are not mean together. There is a way for you which is divorce. But thats not good. Why? If you have children, divorce can effect them.

Marriage for me is not only about akad and nikah. Not only about kenduri. Not only about honeymoon. Not only about sex and having baby. Its more than that. Its about sharing everything forever in your life maybe till your last breath and continue in heaven. Perhaps.

Well. Im still a single teenager. A 19 years-old teenager who are searching for her life goal. Who are searching for happiness. Who have parents who always fight and argue each other. Who always want to get freedom. I know nothing about marriage. But through my experience as a kid who saw her parents fight infront her. All the thing that i wrote are just my thought and experience of my parents.

I read a lot of romance novels. Yet before. I really want to get married. To have a romantic husband who will do anything. Treat me like a princess ( as when i was a kid i never had any chance to feel being a princess. 😂 ) No matter what the conflicts in the relationship, at last we will happy ever after. Hahahaha. Silly me. But then i realised. This is reality. Not a novel. I cant predict the ending. Plus i'm not the heroine. My life is not created by human. Its created by Allah. So, i dont know the ending of my life. Maybe hapoy maybe not. Because of that reason, i feel afraid of marriage.


It just my thought on marriage. 😐

pen tentang coretan hidup saya dipegang oleh saya. SNAA's stand for my name. seorang perempuan yang lansung tidak mempunyai sifat-seifat keperempuanan yang sejati. trying to be a good muslim walaupun sentiasa lalai. gila-gila tapi tak gila. maaf, diri ini kadang-kadang agak blur.

For what had happen in my life. I dont think i want to get married one fine day. I dont want to end up my relationship just like mom and dad do. Always fight and argue each other. I can see. They didnt respect each other. I dont want to have such that relationship. I know myself well. I am egomaniac. Can my future husband bear with my ego, my bad mood? I am afraid that we will fight because of our ego. I dont want such that thing. It is hard to find someone who are truly a good man. Kalau ada pun biasanya orang punya. 😂

Well. Im not as good as saidatina fatimah. So, i dont deserve a guy just like saidina ali.

Because of that, why not i just focus on study and career. If i can find a man who can bear with my bad behaviour, who can keep my secret. Who can respect and take care of me as his wife. Then we will think again.

Yet before, i was afraid. Im not that beautiful. What if nobody loves me. Nanti aku akan kahwin tak? If not, what will my relatives say abou me? Anak dara tua?
But now. I just want to think about myself. What is the purpose of marriage? To make sure that your relatives will not calling you as 'anak dara tua'?

Marriage for me is a forever relationship. If you are not sure you can stay and give commitments in a relationship and bear with your partner behaviours. I think its better if you stay single. Yes. If you get married and you find you and your partner are not mean together. There is a way for you which is divorce. But thats not good. Why? If you have children, divorce can effect them.

Marriage for me is not only about akad and nikah. Not only about kenduri. Not only about honeymoon. Not only about sex and having baby. Its more than that. Its about sharing everything forever in your life maybe till your last breath and continue in heaven. Perhaps.

Well. Im still a single teenager. A 19 years-old teenager who are searching for her life goal. Who are searching for happiness. Who have parents who always fight and argue each other. Who always want to get freedom. I know nothing about marriage. But through my experience as a kid who saw her parents fight infront her. All the thing that i wrote are just my thought and experience of my parents.

I read a lot of romance novels. Yet before. I really want to get married. To have a romantic husband who will do anything. Treat me like a princess ( as when i was a kid i never had any chance to feel being a princess. 😂 ) No matter what the conflicts in the relationship, at last we will happy ever after. Hahahaha. Silly me. But then i realised. This is reality. Not a novel. I cant predict the ending. Plus i'm not the heroine. My life is not created by human. Its created by Allah. So, i dont know the ending of my life. Maybe hapoy maybe not. Because of that reason, i feel afraid of marriage.


It just my thought on marriage. 😐